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End of summer
Summer has gone downhill.
August. Quiet days.
Putting the mists under my head,
The springs wander sleepily.Milky Way crayfish claw
Quietly moving towards dawn
Turning carefully
Gate of slow summer.Be careful, be careful
Blow, winds, over me,
To month newborn
I was not afraid of the darkness of the night.
“Having reckoned with thirst and trash...”
Having reckoned with thirst and trash,
Having settled with faith and the temple,
I'm waiting for you, farewell star.
How I once waited for inspiration,
So now I'm waiting for some rest
From love and bitter labor.But, apparently, the last kochet did not sing
And the soul still wants something,
He doesn’t give away his own.
Thirsts to merge with the century and the crowd.
This is how birds strive to flock together,
Getting ready for a long flight.
“I got everything...”
“I was naive then...”
I was naive then
I didn’t know what the point was.
Buy for five hryvnia,
And if necessary, borrow it.Then I was exalted
Like a rider on a horse.
I didn’t know we were writing ten
And let's keep two in mind.That's not what I was then -
I was completely different.
I didn't know why we were shining
And why are we burning?I was beautiful then
Young slacker.
Then I didn't fall to the ground
Before any trouble.
“It’s already become heavy. I don’t want to go anywhere..."
It has already become heavy. I don't want to go anywhere.
I'd like to light a fireplace and light a candle
And listen and listen like the night wind
It hums and hums over the vast country.
I love the country. By her powerful destiny
Once captured, I became myself.
And with her I am. I don't exist without her.
I am scattered by the storm and inveterate by the wind.
And there is no tree under which I can sleep.
And I have no memory of what I’ll take with me.
“There is a fog in front of you...”
There is fog in front of you,
And behind is water,
And the ground is damp under you,
And above you is a star.But you are not alone in the world,
As long as you feel
The movement of sea and land,
Fogs and stars;As long as you know about yourself,
How do you spend your days
Like an inanimate creature
Just like them.And you don't need to know more
Everything else is deception.
The star sings, the surf flies,
The earth has gone into fog...
“When the gardens are in full bloom...”
When the gardens are in bloom,
The soul, having forgotten itself, rests
From vanity and enmity
And inhales the freshness of the apple tree.She's tired of seeing
The future. She is tired
Reliving the past
To repeat the past from the beginning.She's tired of the shackles
And, resting, I’m ready again
Believe in the freshness of the clouds
And in the holiness of the human image.
“A garden is not nature at all...”
A garden is not nature at all,
And the meaning of transition
From sad autumn to winter,
From the gray sky to the earth.The garden is the dawn in the windows,
Through the window - the enormity of linden trees,
Where silence lies, wet,
And the cold is equal to her.Oh, how I'm tired of this -
Cold winter and summer,
Time is a creaky transition,
What a year this has been going on!..
June 1984
“Write a piece into my life...”
Write a piece into my life
March with a long snowstorm.
Bring in some more wood,
Where is the birch next to the spruce?Make another snowdrift,
What is lilac from the dusk.
Then sum it up
Wind, snow and trees.Put it all together
In the winter form of nature
In the final days
Cold and bad weather.
"In the trees near the water..."
In the trees near the water
The spring thrushes began to sing.
There are fewer of them every year.
A stream between the stones
Every spring it gets cloudier
And every summer it gets smaller.
And every year that grove,
Losing a tree, a bush,
It's becoming less and less common.
Thus comes emptiness;
This is how places change.
And they say: still the same.
"Swimming in spring water..."
Swim in spring water
Breathe in clean air
And with a glance at the shadowy dawn
Aim for a young star.What else? Lie in the grass
All night listening to the field.
And slowly unclench your hand,
To let your heart go free.
It rolls in from afar.
First, with the thunder of a horse train
Along the pavement. The hum of a draft.
Then the fall of heavy barrels from the cart.
Then a high explosive explosion. And behind him
A turn of a supersonic aircraft.
And soon - hell, where there is blow and smoke.
And a tree falling into a swamp.Rage, rage! Hit me, hit me
To fall near the foamy edge of the ocean,
Where resin turns into amber
And death, like life, is light and pristine.
Oh, how I love spring birds,
Without knowing them by name.I'm a city dweller. In turmoil
Have we ever had this before?I am a resident of the streets, a resident of the parks,
And not taiga and not steppes.
And modest city gifts
I wait for the birds and the melting days.
March 1983
Music plays
In a quiet cafeteria.
Sparrow flutters
Outside the window on a tree.Have fun, little one,
April is around the corner.
We'll probably live
Few weeks.
No later than 1983
Like a motley cow
March grazes by the river.
There from the snow cover
There are islands left.Waiting for ice drift
Seen everywhere.
Curiosity of the sky
To the forest, field and water.
No later than 1983
I love March.
Crow caw.
Winter's last splash.
Rook cry,
Where did the dispute arise?
About the benefits of writing.And the wind is fresh.
And here's the line
Between winter and March.
Wind's destiny
On the shore
They tell us fortunes using cards.In the layout of the cards -
Crow caw
And the cries of greedy seagulls,
Rook noise,
whose mind
And the heart answers.
March 1983
“And at dawn the blackbird sings...”
And at dawn the blackbird sings.
Waking up, I feel sad again.
It's impossible to turn around
Back to worldly life.There is something inhuman about
How I live trying
Draw yourself with a pen
And as I write, in despair.And at dawn the thrush whistles
And the tits shade.
And dew falls from the stars
Trees on the eyelashes.
June 1984
“Dear life! The passage of time..."
Sweet life! The passage of time.
The slow decline of the garden.
I'm not burdened with anything.
The word has been spoken, the saga has been written.It seems like there's still something in it...
In a slow, inevitable flow,
Maybe there's a secret message about eternity
And the glow of the neighboring world...Autumn. The starlings have already flown away.
The wind in the trees sounds with many strings.
Sad. But precisely at these hours
So good, lonely, crazy.
1980–1981
“How many spells have appeared here...”
How many spells appeared here:
The wind shook the maples,
I dropped the leaves from the linden tree -
Autumn has come.Everything seemed to be over.
But today my heart is happy:
After all, just one minute
Until winter and snowfall.
“The storm howled all night today...”
The storm howled all night today
And the winter sea was furious.
And that’s why it was so vague,
And I thought about our orphanhood.Is there really an end, a beginning,
But in the world there are no others like us?
And that's why it became so scary
For a lonely planet.And in the morning the waves roared,
The snow sparkled from the sun.
And that’s why we’re so careless
The days ahead appeared before me.
Organ Grinder
The organ grinder walks around the world,
Wandering through Moscow courtyards.
Sharmanochka this music
Plays with sin in half.The organ grinder gets up early
And he works until dark.
“My organ organ, feverish woman!” -
And then the frets jam.“It’s windy and bad weather outside.
And you, my organ, play.
And you are happiness from a box
Get it quickly, parrot!”For your happiness, city dweller
Will pay the last nickel.
“My organ organ, feverish woman,
Play your music like this:Tarats, tarats, tarats,
Taratam, taratam, tara...
With my crested parrot
I'm standing in the middle of the yard.Organ organ, organ organ, organ organ
Got me into trouble.
My organ organ, feverish woman..." -
And then the frets jam.Then, after a difficult autumn,
When the boulevards are black,
He sits in the basement on Trubnaya,
Gives the parrot grain.Over a cup of hot tea
He sits, silent and tired.
After all, giving happiness to others,
He didn't bring himself happiness.
"Someday I will come to you..."
Someday I will come to you,
Someday, someday
When I feel victory
When I open a new path.Someday I'll see you
Someday, someday
And I will hate my life,
And I will fall on your chest in tears.Someday I'll catch you
Confused, as always.
Someday I'll end up with you
In my past years.
December 1980–1981
“To some new distances...”
To some new distances
They called me from you
Some new news
Both joy and sorrow.I took the white road
Compete with evil fate
Following the barefoot spring,
Behind her gypsy shawl.
- You will never be mine,
You will never be mine
You won't love me in reality
And you can’t deceive me in a dream...The leaves on the Jurassic will light up,
Behind the mountain the sea will light up.
They'll trot along the road
There are two black-feathered riders.Their horses will run between the hills
Through the forests in autumn attire,
And they will disappear in the fog,
And behind them the sea will go out.There will be tart, unsteady leaves
On the oak trees of the ancient forest.
And only scraps will remain
Their unclear conversation:- You will never be mine,
You will never be mine.
You won't destroy me in reality
And you can’t lure me in a dream.
“Do you remember, you were then...”
Do you remember when you were
More memoryless than water -
Not a trace on the bright surface,
Not a fold, not a line.We won't stay anywhere
And let's go into the depths of centuries,
Like a reflection on the water
Heavens and clouds.
“And we were rushing somewhere...”
And we were rushing somewhere
On the train together
Without any sorrow
About your future.Along the telegraph lines
Under frequent knocking
We looked into the blue expanse,
Without unclenching your hands.How your strand flew up!
And the air was tight
It smelled like metal
And with a smoke pipe.And we didn’t know then
That the station is close
And what sorrows threaten
With separation for centuries.
As children, nannies scared us,
What the gypsies will take away.
Oh, you stealing nannies,
It's a shame I wasn't kidnapped.I would wander with a lunar camp
(Strangely vague).
Horses under the young moon.
The smell of thyme.Where are you, my gypsies,
Dancers, horse thieves?
Where are you, my gypsies,
Where are you, hearts of joy?In our great poetry
There is a gypsy note.
And this note sounds
When you no longer feel like living.“It’s strangely foggy.
We parted unexpectedly.
There's a wound in the heart
And life is not desirable.”Until the moon goes out
There will be gypsyism in the world:
Song, deception, deceit,
Violin and consistency.I remember the gypsy Ignat
In the city of Chisinau.
He once played for me
About my old love.“It’s strangely foggy.
Early in the evening.
We parted unexpectedly
And there’s a wound in my heart!”The knot of my sadness
Violin, pull it tight...
Oh, if only the nannies knew
How to save our souls!
Spell it, gypsy,
Tell fortunes on the cards
Rob me completely
But give away your youth!Stripped down to the skin
Awkward, young,
I'll go in a cab
With a bay horse.- Tell me, cab driver,
Where are you taking me?
After all, it's in my pocket
One unfortunate penny.The driver will answer me:
– If you can’t, don’t pay.
After all, you don’t know, little one,
Where to take you!Not young, not old,
Not dead, not alive,
Stripped down to the skin
I'll wander around Moscow.And suddenly - a familiar courtyard,
Where clothes are dried.
– Hello, my friend Tatyana,
Let me into the house.- Forgive me, my dear,
That I can't let go.
For not loving
You can't forgive me.I'll leave sad -
I remembered everything, forgot everything.
- You, my friend Tatyana,
I loved so little!Forgotten - not forgotten.
And it hurts. And it's light.
And what comes after
Already happened.
"Life weaves its own story..."
B<орису>WITH<луцкому>
Life weaves its own story.
But when you look back,
A fresh light arises
Far away - in nine fields.According to which five
It was early June.
And the imperishable five
I was lit up by their efforts.How much blood has been shed
How many things have been accomplished
How much hair has fallen out
And the hearts stopped!But it shines in the distance
The fresh light of that June
Like in the early morning river
The sharp glow of the new moon.
“Yes, I’m lucky in this world...”
Yes, I'm lucky in this world -
Come and hug people
And be a toastmaster at a feast
Intelligence, nobility, love.And malice and intricacies
Almost nothing to notice.
And only high moments
See the stamp on life.
“I had the good fortune to be a Russian poet...”
I had the good fortune to be a Russian poet.
I had the honor of touching victories.I had the misfortune of being born in my twenties,
In a damned year and in a damned century.I got everything. And with that I fell out,
Like a drunk from a truck on a great hike.I’m lying in a ditch like a frozen felt boot.
It's good to have nothing in Rus'.
“Here, in the distance, it is unknown who died, who is alive...”
Here, in the distance, it is unknown who died and who is alive.
They just don't write letters.
Here the Gulf is always breathing in front of the windows.
And my friends are no longer breathing.Let the breath of the Gulf merge with mine.
He is embraced by the wind,
Together with him we will quench with an ocean tear
The bitterness of every loss.
May 1983 – late 1983 or early 1984
“Take me to Georgia! This is where I want to die..."
L<идии>L<ибединской>
But first I want to look from the cliff above Sighnaghi
To the valley where autumn forges grape copper
And the mountains stand in a semicircle, with their hats pulled up.In the Alazani Valley, feed me local wine,
Then I will chew golden churchkhela for a long time.
Take me to Georgia, friend, bring me to the house.
Only here will I be able to devote myself to the last task.Only here, where Shota and Vazha once sang,
Only here, where there was an obstacle to the omnipotence of Islam,
Only here, where fate will bring me to the line,
Only in Georgia, here, will the final drama begin.May I be refreshed by the breath of her hills.
Let me be embraced, drunk with her share and will,
Byzantine tenderness of delicate Georgian princesses
And the slow politeness of good peasant feasts.Take me to Georgia! This is where I want to die.
Here, with friends, the feeling of being a foreign land will suddenly end.
And I also want, and I also want to see
From the Sighnahi Heights to the depths of the Alazani Valley.
January–February 1984
“Don’t stop me from drinking wine...”
Don't stop me from drinking wine.
It contains inspiration.
Inspiration. And extensions
We can't achieve it.Without wine, fate is dark.
My lamp is going out.
Death is not a drinking buddy,
She calls for sobriety.Is it possible to live by preserving yourself,
With a sense of self-preservation?
No, you can't in the middle of a battle
Protect yourself from fire!Let me live like this,
So as not to pay attention
For intermittency of breathing
And a dull pain in my heart!..
March 1983
“Not a confession, not a sermon...”
Not a confession, not a sermon,
Not the music of success -
The desire to try
How does the echo respond?Like our present
Sings in the frosty early
And how worthwhile it sounds
Beyond the centuries.
“And no matter what you listen to, it’s all a repeat…”
And no matter what you listen to, it’s all a repeat.
Yes, my quail, you quail yourself too.
But one day, dumbfounded with joy,
You put a special note in the space.The one who is unfaithful and contrary to the rest...
But, my quail, I will not reproach you
A break in the motive, a break in the line,
I won’t blame all the nonsense.Even if that note is somehow not the same,
Yes, my quail, blow it like a glassblower
And when the height is too much for you,
Rip apart the gaping beak with bubbling.
“I went far away. I was sad…"
I went into the distance. I was sad.
Love is gone. The wine is gone.
And I thought about art:
But is it really necessary?Then why does a genius strive
To know the uselessness of existence,
After all, everything is more and more instantaneous
And my secret life!..
March 1983
“I know: this tree is in June...”
I know: this tree is in June
Reaches spiritual heights.
How luxurious it is on the new moon,
How strong is his smell and sweat!The lunar pasture is spreading out,
Dissolving in the dawn smoke.
Silently the tree will say something
The month will answer him silently.They look at each other with a smile
And they will see that dawn is coming soon.
And then the birds will strike
Following the passing month.
Duo for violin and viola
M<аше>P<антелеевой>
Mozart is slightly intoxicated
I was going home.
There was a wonderful excitement
Crazy day.And looked with a cheerful eye
On people
Composer Mozart Wolfgang
Amadeus.There were linden leaves around him
Light ringing.
“Tara-tara, tili-tiki,”
He thought. -Yes! Company, drinks,
Bustle.
But a duet for violin
And viola."Let them take his art
For free.
How much feeling does it take
And crazy!Composer Mozart Wolfgang,
He is very good -
As much as required
And he will give...Oh, and there will be Amadeus
Flying home.
And for a whole week -
Black ice.Not a word, not a smile.
Dumbness.
But a duet for violin
And viola.Yes! You have to pay
On the world
For fun and joy
At the feastFor wine and for mistakes -
Clean!
But a duet for violin
And viola!
About Vanyushka
Vanyushka asks his mother:
- Bake me some cakes -
A whole pood.- Why do you need, Vanyushka,
Shanezhek
A whole pound?
- I’ll take the shanezhki
Yes, I'll go to the bargaining.
I'll sell shanezhki,
I'll get money for them.- Why do you need money, Vanya?
- I’ll buy a velvet caftan,
Yes, goat boots,
Yes, I’ll buy a gun with notches.
As soon as I throw back the hem of my caftan,
Like stamping my boots three times,
As soon as I start firing from a gun,
The boyars in the city are afraid,
The boyar servants run away.
I'll take their treasury,
I'll take it for myself.
- Oh, Vanyushka, stupid Vanyushka.
The boyars in the city are strong.
They won't give you the treasury.
You better go to bed.
“The miracle is the knowability of the universe...”
Miracle - the knowability of the universe
And a wonderful dialogue with nature.
This one is pure, dark and healing
Rivers, skies, deserts and seas syllable.These mountains are sublime odes,
Motley elegies of forests,
Conversation of meaningful Nature,
Notes of bird voices.Be careful when accepting confessions
And a confusing story about secrets.
Let something remain beyond the bounds,
Curiosity holding us back.
Later poems
Beatrice
Beatrice
They say Beatrice was a city girl,
Ugly, fat, angry.
But love fell on the stern Dante,
A gold earring like a stone.He picked it up. And I looked at it for a long time.
And he looked and held it in the palm of his hand.
And he took it forever. And he sang with delight
About your ugly Madonna.And she, despite her ignorance,
Suddenly I heard in the kitchen noise
Secret call. And she recognized her doom.
And she put on a set with pearls.And, feeling my doom modestly,
She became prettier, thinner, paler,
Has acquired a pinkish dullness, as if
Dead pearls near a warm body.From afar he complained about the lack of response
And I didn’t know, illuminated by centuries,
What was it like for her, doomed for eternity,
Arguing in shops with greengrocers.In a noisy house, pugnacious children were screaming,
Servants were running and doors were slamming.
But there were two of them. There was no need for a third
This woman and Alighieri.
Bus stop "Lauri"
You and I are on vacation
In a year-round school
Mutual learning.
There are forests and pastures all around.
The road winds through a field.
Early evening bus.And the Lauri stop
Suddenly she might become Laura,
Against a background of flat grass
Possibly in a light aura
Among the gloomy nature
Petrarch's appearance.Where is it from? In the dark.
But somewhere beyond the meadows,
Where they don't suspect
"Divine Comedy"
Ominous circles
The district is brewing.The soul in its difference.
Divine poetry
Two victims. Two graves.
Laura. Beatrice.
“I can’t wait! Instantly! After a minute…"
I can't wait! Instantly! After a minute!
After all, every moment I change myself.
And now for some reason I dreamed,
That we live by the sundial.But there is no sun. It's dark in the soul, like a gallery.
And the moon's dial is hidden by fog.
And only at the Viljandi bell tower
Twelfth strike. The bell ringer doesn't sleep.
“Desire and conscience are two cups...”
Desire and conscience - two bowls
Libra. If there is no balance,
Our desires are shameless.
And conscience is a complete mutilation.
And in a suicidal rage,
Like a terrible fire of black forest,
The human insides are smoking.
I'll see the dawn outside the venous window,
I understand that there is no need to compete with sleep.
Now you can no longer sleep, no longer doze,
But just pester yourself with waiting.And the rain does not subside even during the day.
First I'll wait for an inspired line.
But the rhymes crack like rafters.
Yes! My gods are burning pots,
And I just sculpt them sadly.Then I start waiting for letters.
And I wait for the children to wake up from their sleep.
And for you to make coffee.
And for you to speak.But we both begin to wait for the enemy.
You dropped salt near the hearth.
Oh, it’s a pity that I broke the salt shaker!First I would like to kill him.
And after that I would like to forget him.
And after that I would like to love him.
How the grave loves the dead.
Or maybe even a hundred times stronger.
But soon the sunset comes.And the rain is still noisy outside the venous window.
And you can only console yourself with wine,
Or maybe with a blow from damask steel.
All wait, wait and wait again,
And wait for everything to happen again.
May this end someday.
Don Quixote
So within a day I get tired of fighting with windmills
And from the Spanish fantasy,
What do I want in the evening in a tavern with men?
Become Sancho Panza.Funny old man, thin, gray-haired,
I'm silent. Who needs exquisite prose!
I remain silent and listen. But suddenly I turn pale,
When they start talking about Dulcinea,
About Dulcinea from Tobozo!What do they say about her, about the girl from the hayloft!
Funny hidalgo, get up, because the night is not over,
Peck your heavenly grain until the morning.
And in the morning you will again go to war against imaginary monsters.
But you won't fight Sancho Panza.
And he won’t be able to fight you.
"You gave me guilt..."
You gave me guilt
Like the strength of old wine.At first I was crushed in the vat,
Like Kakheti peasants
Tight bunches of Alazani
They harvest, merciless to the fruit.Then she deprived me of my flesh.
And what will you drink of my blood,
I'll serve it to you at the feast.
In passions in which there is no talent,
Suicide plotted
Or murder. Dante's Passion
Equal to him. They grow branchily.Passion is not at all a prototype of adultery.
In it, blindness coexists with sight,
With immensity - an exquisite measure:
The merging of God with his creation.There is no lust in her. And it doesn't smell like flesh.
There is a spiritual passion. Everything else is a lie.
And the twisted image of Lady Macbeth,
Who hides a knife under her apron.
“At this time of leaf fall...”
At this time of leaf fall,
Where the wind is sour wine,
When there is no need for extra tears -
The garden's eye sockets are full of them,I can feel sorry for you.
I can understand. But until now
Nobody could overcome
Your caring pride.You yourself have no power over her,
How everyone has no control over fate.
And autumn is dangerous with death.
And the surf hits you right in the throat.
“Lie that you love! If it's a lie..."
Lie that you love! If it's a lie
Good, then be blessed!
Is it really better than a rusty knife?
And a cut vein?Yes! Pretend! I need to know the truth
Unbearable, impossible.
Cherish the grace of untruths,
Like in a cradle, be careful.
Conscience, Love and Desire started a conversation. The conversation ended in a quarrel.
Conscience said that it has a place in everyone.
Love said: “And everyone is always looking for me!”
Desire was upset, but found something to answer: “People often change you for me!”
All three of them sat and did not even want to look at each other.
Conscience tried to explain: “When good is done or evil is done, people need me! I'm like a judge. The decision depends on me, which means I am more important than you!”
Love answered: “Darling, everyone dreams of me from birth to old age. Everyone wants to touch me at least for a second. And when it comes to me, you’re already in second place!”
Desire thought and said: “Are you trying to say that I’m in third place?” And she gave an example: “A person at a young age is subordinate only to me. I am the reason for the search for his soul mate. I take honorable first place! He won’t even pay attention to his conscience, but when he gets confused and calls me love! If successful, there will be no price for me. I am a reward for a person! When it comes to me, everyone becomes deaf and blind. Nobody hears your cries, conscience, worries, jealousy! My status is true love!
In case of failure, you will be to blame, dear Conscience. After all, this person did not hear you, and you are the first to blame, dear love! This person will remember you with bitterness for the rest of his life as his first bad experience! I’m in the lead again, as soon as a new person appears on the horizon. Tell me, am I wrong?
Love was offended by such harsh feedback.
“Are you saying that I bring misfortune?” cried love! “How can you compare me to yourself? You are just a desire, and I am LOVE! You stupid thing! I not only connect two people, I open my eyes to the world. I am in children, in nature, in God, in the word Motherland! Nobody can replace me! Yes, I can bring pain, but this is not my fault, but the merit of youth, which can confuse you and me!”
Desire is silent
Conscience added: “Yes, Love is right! You, Desire, are not Love yet! Yes, Desire, it is you who can make people deaf and blind. It is you who do not give many people a chance to feel what the taste of true love is. You are the cause of many separations and troubles. It is because of you that children are abandoned, crying, searching and waiting. It's because of you that many people are ready to sell out! How dare you still offend Love? Remember once and for all that love never brings anything but happiness!”
Desire realized that Love was right and conscience was on its side. But despite the bewilderment, a smile flashed across the face of desire!”
“I am eternal, you grow old and lose importance over time. Conscience remains with us until the end of our lives and in the next world tells the whole truth about us, about our deeds,” whispered Love!
Desire in the next world dissolves into thin air. It turns out that Conscience and I are sisters, and you are a stranger!
After hearing this, Desire felt ashamed, it felt abandoned and thought: “Love and Conscience are life partners, and I’m just Desire?”
Conscience and Love took pity on Desire and said: “You, too, are necessary! Without you, no one would be able to love each other and Conscience would forever be silent! You are the first step to finding happiness!”
They forgot about all the grievances, hugged each other and began to live as before!”
There once lived a very powerful and proud king. When he passed through his domain, the people fell on their faces and shouted: “Long live our lord!” And the treasurer walked behind and threw gold to the people. Anyone who did not bow before the king had his head cut off.
One day during the procession, the king noticed a monk walking towards him with his head raised. The executioner was about to raise his sword over the rebellious man, but the ruler stopped him. Stepping off the palanquin, the king rushed to the wanderer and fell on his knees before him. It was his father, who once abdicated the throne and went in search of truth.
- Father, how glad I am that you are back! - I didn't come back. I have been to one end of the earth, and now I am going to the other. My path lies through your domain.
- But this is also your domain, father! It pains me to see you in these rags. Treasurer, give him gold, no matter how much he asks!!!
- No, son. Just feed me or give me some coins.
With these words, the monk handed the king a wooden bowl. The Emperor ordered it to be filled to the brim, but no matter how much gold was poured into it, it remained empty. Then the king ordered to bring first one cart of gold coins, then another. But it was all in vain. The cup was not filled even after forty cartloads of gold were in it. And then the king exclaimed:
- Father, I don’t understand, we threw the entire treasury into the bowl, but it is still empty!
- Son, I’m glad that you’ve already thought about this.
Alas, I was stupid and threw everything I had at her - my youth, health, kingdom. But, as you can see, it remained empty. For this is a cup of desires, and it will not become fuller even if you put your own life into it.
The Tibetan wishing bowl is intended for carrying out a ritual of fulfillment of cherished desires. The ritual is carried out as follows: a cherished wish is written down on a small piece of paper and burned. After which the cup with the ashes is filled with red wine and drunk. However, it should be taken into account that your desire must be sincere and aimed only at good goals.
What you need to know and do to quickly fulfill your desires.
Ways to achieve the goal.
Victoria Kulirenko "Women's Magazine"
LAWS OF FULFILLMENT OF WISHES
This happens often. A certain situation, a set of life circumstances for the time being, seems incredible, one of those unrealizable miracles. But a month, two, a year passes, and the person is surprised to notice that he is already living in this miracle. What seemed unattainable just yesterday has become a reality. And then they say: a dream has come true. In fact, dreams do not come true on their own, but according to their own clear laws, which are not as mysterious and incomprehensible as it might seem at first glance. Moreover: if you know the rules of the game, your cherished desires can come true much more often and faster. On New Year's Eve, the mystical minute of the chiming clock, during which you need to have time to ask for the most important thing, we gathered in the editorial office of WOMEN'S MAGAZINE five wizards, authors of original popular theories of the realization of the sacred. We talked with them about the laws of wish fulfillment and, it seems, now we know something about it.
Our guests:
Alexander SVIYASH, writer and psychologist, head of the Center for Positive Psychology “Reasonable Way”, author of the books “Reasonable World. How to live without unnecessary worries”, “What is stopping you from being rich”, “What to do when everything is not the way you want” and others (Moscow);
Valery SINELNIKOV, psychotherapist, psychologist, homeopath, author of the books “The Power of Intention”, “Vaccination against Stress, or Psychoenergetic Aikido” and others (Simferopol);
Tatyana DUGELNAYA, head of the Leleka Center for Creative Development, psychologist-psychotherapist, specialist in positive transformation of consciousness (Kyiv);
Svetlana VASKOVSKAYA, Candidate of Psychological Sciences, Associate Professor of the Department of Psychodiagnostics and Medical Psychology of the National University. T. G. Shevchenko (Kyiv);
Yuriy ZHIVOGLYADOV, candidate of psychological sciences, psychotherapist, NLP coach, vice-president of the Kyiv Association of Practicing Psychologists and Psychotherapists (Kyiv).
"LJ": What does the fulfillment of a desire depend on first of all - on the person himself or on the circumstances?
Alexander Sviyash: 100% - from the person, from the efforts he puts in. But on one condition: the goal he strives for is, in principle, realizable. Suppose someone wants to build a three-story house in 3 weeks or get a higher education in 2 months - these are unrealistic dreams. I remember there were girls I knew who dreamed of marrying exclusively princes by blood. But there were two who wanted it, and there was only one free prince in Europe. However, if there are no external limitations that a person cannot overcome, if he is positive and puts in enough effort to realize his desire, the goal will be achieved.
Valery Sinelnikov: To a greater extent, the implementation of plans depends on the person, although circumstances make their own adjustments. Whether we like it or not, we are influenced by certain forces: space, the Sun, the Moon, gravity, electromagnetic radiation. There are also energy flows emanating from every living creature in this world: humans, animals, plants. We shape the circumstances. But, in addition to my desires, there are another 6 billion people who also have their own aspirations. In general, the impulses affecting us can be called the force of the universe. If our desires do not conflict with this powerful force, we live in harmony with the world around us, our plans are easily realized at the best time.
“LJ”: How can the forces of the cosmos influence the fulfillment of a specific desire, for example, to climb the corporate ladder or finally get married?
Valery Sinelnikov: They can fill us with vitality to achieve a goal or, conversely, take it away. Take, for example, the sun. It’s not for nothing that our ancestors lived according to it: they went to bed at 9 pm, at sunset, and woke up at dawn - in winter around 6 am, and in summer around 4 am. For what? To be fully saturated with the energy of light, warmth, joy that this luminary gives. Later this recovery does not occur. The rising sun fills us with the energy of life and action. This is the most favorable time to strengthen your intentions. After lying in bed for these hours, we do not receive energetic support from the outside, the fulfillment of desires is inhibited, and there is not enough personal strength for this. The moon, from 21:00 to 24:00, radiates the energy of peace and tranquility. And if a person goes to bed at 21, maximum at 22 o’clock, before midnight he completely restores his energy reserves. By the way, for women, in order to accumulate personal power and realize their intentions, it is very important to live according to the Moon.
“LJ”: What is needed to make a wish come true?
Yuri Zhivoglyadov: Actions. For those who do not take any steps to realize their plans, their desires are only detrimental. Desires and actions are two parts of one whole.
Alexander Sviyash: If you just sit, nothing will happen. One day a woman came to me for a consultation. She said that not long ago she came to Moscow with her child from the provinces, rented an apartment, and survived in very difficult conditions. And she began to declare everywhere: “I have a two-room apartment in Moscow!” I repeated it at home, walked down the street and threw this phrase into space. This lasted for two months, until her uncle, whom she had not seen for 10 years, came to visit her, looked at how she lived, and gave the required amount to buy a two-room apartment. We can say that she shouted out her apartment - she put a good charge of energy into her dream and cast aside doubts. The latter is very important, because doubts are an unconscious order of the opposite, the position “I’m not worthy of this.”
Svetlana Vaskovskaya: Not allowing any doubt that the desire is feasible is a fundamental point. But it is largely based on the experience of past years. After all, we make our future and victories in it the past. The past exists, and it is structured, you and your successes live in it, confidence in them, knowledge, facts, belief that this happens. I am sure that in the biography of the woman who screamed about the apartment, there were cases when she received large gifts from fate (on the scale of a two-room apartment in Moscow) without any reason. And when it is in the past, it is attracted to the present.
Valery Sinelnikov: It is important to clearly formulate your desire, to have an image of it. And what is also needed is personal strength or the strength of a person’s accumulated piety, which consists of his good and selfless deeds. It is she who helps to quickly and efficiently implement our plans. Remember how Dunno in Sunny City, in order to receive a magic wand, had to do three good deeds. While he did good solely to receive a reward, nothing came of it, but when he forgot about the contract and helped out his friends without any selfish thoughts, the wizard rewarded him with a wand. When we help people from the heart, our personal power (and the speed of fulfillment of desires) grows, but if we do it for money or with other intentions, it does not count.
Svetlana Vaskovskaya: I think that to realize a desire you need a magic triangle, the consonance of three components: emotions, intellect and actions. A person must think about what he wants, emotionally experience it as something pleasant and necessary, and act in this direction. If I think about something, immediately fear it, and at the same time unwittingly do something that violates the ecology of my idea of the world, nothing will work out. In addition, there must be variations of the same desire. All women would get married if they didn’t hold on so tightly to the ideal they came up with for themselves and allowed deviations from it. It is desirable that the image of a prince by blood include at least ten options: a sheikh, a count, a lord and an employee who appears to be a 100% nobleman.
Valery Sinelnikov: A very important point on the path to achieving a dream is a grateful state of mind. Accepting with gratitude what you already have: your physical body, husband, children, friends, boss, employees. It is important to believe: everything that I have today is the best that can be at the moment. A constant feeling of gratitude is the key to making your dreams come true.
Tatyana Dugelnaya: A state of internal order, harmony according to the principle of resonance (like attracts like) will attract order, success into your life and serve as the basis for the fulfillment of desires. It is important to use positive life-affirming principles in life, for example, “I wanted the best, but it turned out even better.”
“LJ”: It’s no secret that not all the goals we strive for are really what we need. There is a category of desires, and there are many of them, imposed by society: you need to have a car of a specific brand, a husband by the age of 30, a certain volume of hips and waist. How to distinguish true aspirations from false ones?
Alexander Sviyash: We feel true desires unconsciously. When thinking about them, there is excitement, internal trembling, seething energy. If you want it until your hands tremble, this is your real desire. A powerful energy message is formed, and if it is supported by actions, a positive attitude is set in motion, and the person is given opportunities to realize his plans. He, of course, may not take them, then nothing will come of it. But if he uses it, the goal will be achieved. If the desire is external, far-fetched, there is no drive when thinking about it.
Svetlana Vaskovskaya: In psychology, this is called emotional impulses. They especially manifest themselves in early childhood, when the false “I” imposed by others has not yet been strengthened in children. When a child acts from the heart, emotionally, you can even understand what he will strive for in the future. There are early memories by which one can determine where the soul was striving. If the spiritual impulses of childhood coincide with what we consciously want today, this is our true nature.
Yuri Zhivoglyadov: Initially, we already have a stereotypical scenario of a good, correct life with a Mercedes and other attributes, and in it there is a catalog of desires prepared (not by us). From there we choose them. Of course, we implement our choice through our efforts, actions, and labor. But at the same time we lose the ability to desire, to catch subtle exciting impulses coming from the depths of the soul. Often patients come to me who have everything and say: “Empty. Everything is there, but my soul is empty.” They have no ability to desire. And psychotherapists have to help people restore this skill.
Alexander Sviyash: I knew a Russian girl who married a rich American in New York, bought a prestigious apartment on the 15th floor in Manhattan, she had everything. Her dreams were completely fulfilled, and she felt sad, she tried to jump out the window. In such cases, when it is unclear what else to strive for, you need to set yourself a task: I want to find what I want to desire. If you have realized yourself financially, set yourself a goal to succeed in the field of art, sports, travel, engage in science, join meditation, trance states. The main thing is to set a goal, and a person will run towards it with the same tenacity with which he strived for his money.
Tatyana Dugelnaya: By fulfilling our real desires, it’s as if we are carried along by the “flow” of life, we experience pleasure and are most often satisfied with the result. When a desire is someone else’s, imposed, it is most often realized through a series of obstacles and too much effort must be made to fulfill it.
“LJ”: If a person is rich enough, but wants more money, is this a false need or a real one?
Alexander Sviyash: There are people who, having earned 10-15 million dollars, stop because even in 50 years they will not be able to spend it. They are reducing the turnover of their business, switching to creativity and travel. But there is another category of rich people for whom the meaning of life is to earn money. I think this is an instinctive, unconscious desire to climb as high as possible on the ladder of society, because it is safer there. A person cannot explain why he needs a billion, two, three. It is impossible to spend this money, but he continues to earn money, while being in constant stress.
Svetlana Vaskovskaya: I’ll tell you a parable about the inexhaustibility of human desires. One day a rich man met a beggar who was holding a cup. The rich man felt compassion for the poor man and promised to fill the cup with gold, but no matter how much he poured it in, the golden sand woke up and disappeared. Then the donor begged: “What are you doing, what kind of cup is this? The poor man replied: “It is made from a human skull.” Human nature is such that we always want more and more. The wishing cup is difficult to fill. It is important to be able to put a rein on this endless flow, otherwise a person risks becoming unhappy and losing the ability to enjoy life.
Alexander Sviyash: Living in the flow of desires is a Western tradition, which we have also adopted. This is where the idea came from that everything is available if you just want it. In the East, on the contrary, they believe that desires create worries, which spoil karma, so the next life will be bad. The idea is: fear desires, be content with what you have, and you will find happiness. There are entire nations who continue to live happily outside the world of desires. Until, of course, Western civilization touches them.
“LJ”: What is more important for people: the fulfillment of a desire or the process of achieving it itself?
Alexander Sviyash: Very often a person is more interested in the process of overcoming, of struggle, rather than the result. The path to the goal gives a feeling of life, healthy excitement, and when the plan is realized, a void is formed, it is not clear where to strive next. If we were brought up in Buddhist traditions, where desires are considered unacceptable, in such cases we could talk about achieving nirvana: “I have everything. I do not want anything. I have become self-actualized." But people who are accustomed to running away from something all their lives fall into depression. I know a woman who spent 15 years unsuccessfully struggling with an extra 7 kilos of weight: diets, exercise equipment, dietary supplements. But one day she got tired of it, she said, that’s it, let my husband look at me as fat, I’m crossing this task out of my life. She gave away all the supplements, sold the exercise equipment, and after a month her clothes hung on her like on a hanger. She has lost weight. The process of overcoming was important to her, so achieving the goal was blocked. As soon as the goal was removed, it was immediately realized, but this was no longer interesting to her.
“LJ”: What can obstacles mean on the way to achieving your goal?
Alexander Sviyash: This is some kind of signal that you have set the wrong goal. Life protects you from unnecessary results and encourages you to think. If you take a break and reflect on what is happening, you can see the incorrect formulation of your own intentions. You need to pay attention to obvious signals. If on the way to fruition you lose something five times, the phones are silent, they don’t let you in, it’s as if you’re running into a wall - you should think about it. For example, you want to get a certain position, but it is always busy. Then you need to go and find out in more detail what else the person sitting there does. Possibly with e-service from the manager. Are you ready for this? No. So, go with the flow. Realize what you have luck in today.
Valery Sinelnikov: If a desire is persistently not fulfilled, most likely the person does not need it. Or this desire was born in passion (all human intentions arise in a state of passion, ignorance or goodness). My concept is this: the universe takes care of us all and creates obstacles solely for the good. Universal concern can turn into bumps and stress only if we do not understand basic things, do not look for other ways, meanings of clues, do not rearrange our intentions, but try to go ahead.
Svetlana Vaskovskaya: A sudden obstacle must be met positively. When leaving work against your will, for example, you should understand that processes have begun here that contradict your essence. With gratitude to the world, accept what happened and move on.
“LJ”: Whose wishes come true first?
Valery Sinelnikov: Those who believe in their fulfillment. Strong people who know how to make sacrifices for their goals. Or, as our ancestors said, perform austerities or hold back. Even if the goal is not that big. For example, a person needs a car, and he decides to save money. Thus, after a year he receives the amount to achieve the goal. We can say that in order to pay for his desire, he refrained from other intentions and received what he wanted.
Alexander Sviyash: First of all, the wishes of energetic, positive people with good self-esteem are fulfilled. They are more effective than those who doubt, because doubts eat up our energy potential.
Svetlana Vaskovskaya: All dreams come true, but not everyone understands that they wanted it. One day, a young girl came to me for counseling because she was tormented by guilt over the death of her ex-boyfriend. He loved her very much, but she refused him, the rejected admirer got into a fight, he was sent to prison, and there he died. Four years have passed since then, and she is tormented by pangs of conscience. But upon closer examination, it turned out that this girl lacked love since childhood. She had four brothers, to whom she was a second mother. And since childhood, she secretly dreamed that someone would love her to death. And her dream came true. And her admirer may have subconsciously dreamed of sacrificing his life for someone. Their wishes coincided, and everyone got what they wanted.
Yuri Zhivoglyadov: First of all, your wishes, the author’s, come true. If you have not cultivated them in yourself through urges, impulses, abstractions, then most likely you are not fighting for your desires. But the saddest thing is that these other people’s wishes, imposed by someone, also come true...
Tatyana Dugelnaya: The wishes of children, lovers and self-confident individuals. The first ones are full of spontaneity and sincerity, the second ones are full of love and passion, the third ones are true to their principles.
"LJ": What is environmental friendliness of desires?
Alexander Sviyash: Do not wish harm to others. Even if they did something bad to you, find the positive in it and don’t wish evil in return. If you love a man and he is married, naturally you want to have him, but in doing so you will make his wife suffer. Your desire is good, but it brings discomfort to third parties. An abandoned wife will hate you, get sick right away in order to keep him, and begin to manipulate him. It turns out that you feel good and she feels bad. In this case, you need to at least wish the wife that she, too, will have some kind of love, so that she will let her husband go. You need to be careful with such desires. Ideally, it is better not to target a specific, married man, but to look more broadly, since there are probably others nearby who are similar, but without a wife.
Valery Sinelnikov: In my opinion, purity of thoughts is important. The goal should be favorable not only for me, but also for the world around me. Many people today live in the position of a consumer, in the consciousness of a cancer cell that draws upon itself all the juices of the body, poisons it and dies along with it. I recently watched the American film “The Secret” about the technologies of wish fulfillment. All desires in it come down to consumption, pleasure: how to get a house, a car, a career, a girlfriend, but nothing is said about what I will give to this world in return. Wishes come true - that's a fact, but the idea itself is dangerous. It’s the same as putting a person without driving skills in a Ferrari and pressing the gas. Yes, dreams come true, but at the same time I have to move from the position of a consumer to the position of a creator, to give something to this world so that it becomes brighter, lighter, so that the earth is a blooming garden and not suffocating in exhaust fumes. I'll explain with a personal example. For example, I am not satisfied with the modern education system. I created a charitable foundation, and together with my like-minded people, using our own funds, we are building a new type of school in Simferopol, where children from an early age will be instilled with the idea of unity with the outside world, responsibility for their clan, people, land, and space. And to this I dedicate my life, money, strength. I don't make a profit, I have other sources of income. But I feel morally satisfied. And, by the way, until the last moment all my wishes and intentions came true. Any of us can do something for our land, at least plant a tree. Or to raise a harmonious person, a creator - this is already an act of universal scale. And, believe me, the universe will support your idea in every possible way and will give you everything you need for its implementation, including material benefits.
Tatyana Dugelnaya: Keep a success diary and write down any of your achievements in it - small and large. If the state of success cannot be constantly kept in mind, it needs to be recorded in notes. Starting with the elementary: today I was pushed in transport, but I did not speak out about this. I acted from the position of an observer - and this is a plus. This is one of the small successes that add up to a big one. In this way, a person increases his self-esteem and maintains a feeling of success. The best days for planning, setting goals, desires are the first and second lunar days. It is believed that at this time the universe itself helps to implement the plan. Psychologists explain the magical power of the first lunar day by the mechanism of self-programming. You didn’t just make a wish, but on the first lunar day, which means your confidence in a favorable outcome increases significantly.
Alexander Sviyash: There is another powerful tool - visualization - an idea of what you want. In addition, you need to write down and repeat your desires. You can create a waiting effect. I'll explain with an example. A woman moved to a new area, to an apartment without a telephone. Telephone installation at home is in a month, and she desperately needs this means of communication for work. And then she bought a telephone, put it on the window, walked around it, stroked it, picked up the phone, said: “Hello!” A month later, she met a friend of mine who worked in the GTS service, told him about her trouble, and they installed a telephone line for her out of turn. Another woman couldn’t get pregnant for a long time, but she created the effect of expectation: she bought a stroller, started cooking baby food, and repeated into space: “I’m waiting for you, dear, come.” And a couple of months later she became pregnant... Americans say: “If you want to be rich, act and think like a rich person.” Of course, don’t spend money like a millionaire, but ask the price of cars and things, talk as if you have the means to purchase them. You begin to think differently, attract other people to you, other situations favorable for the realization of your desire.
Valery Sinelnikov: Of course, you can write down desires on paper, and hang a collage of your dreams on the wall, you can look at fast, clean water and pronounce your desire and thus strengthen the energy message. But if it's really what you need, it already lives inside you and doesn't need reminders.
“LJ”: Dreams come true first of all for energetic people. How to increase your energy on the way to achieving your goal?
Alexander Sviyash: The mechanism for realizing desire is similar to exchange, bargaining. We release a certain amount of energy and in return we receive the desired event. And the greater the amount of energy generated, the faster the result will come. You can even derive a formula: the speed of realization of a desire is equal to the strength of emotions on the path of implementation, multiplied by the time of effort. Accordingly, an emotional person who says on a wave of excitement: “I want to visit Australia” will realize his dream much faster. Sluggish, rational people can follow the recommendations of the American psychotherapist Louise Hay, who advises rewriting affirmations (positive attitudes) 10,000 times in order to gain the energy of desire. Also use emotional moments associated with overcoming a certain stereotype of behavior (say, going out into the street and shouting your desire). This is an exciting factor that disrupts a certain order and thereby helps to overcome barriers. In addition, contrast showers and stay in the mountains increase energy. After all, energy flows converge at higher elevations, and if you say something out loud in these places, it increases efficiency.
“LJ”: Which desires come true first: spiritual or material?
Alexander Sviyash: Realization of material things is more difficult, because it also applies to other persons, because money passes from one person to another. It is much easier to discover some ability in yourself. The question is whether you will be able to use it in the future.
Tatyana Dugelnaya: Spiritual and material desires are so interconnected, and a person is so integral, that he cannot be realized only in the material or only in the spiritual world. Moreover, often on the path to the embodiment of spiritual desires, implementation in the material world is necessary.
Valery Sinelnikov: If a person realizes only material dreams, to some extent he destroys himself. After all, we consist not only of a physical body, but also a subtle body - soul, mind, spirit. And just as the physical body needs comfort, nutrition, and rest, the subtle body also requires development and attention. To get an apartment, a vacuum cleaner, a car, we give our vital energy - we work, we spend time, effort. But if all the energy is spent only on the realization of material values, the subtle body suffers disaster, and the subconscious turns on the blocking mechanism. And then we begin to lose the accumulated benefits. Everything should be harmonious. A person should not set himself only material goals, they should be a means for further growth and spiritual development. And then any goals, including material ones, can be easily realized.
“LJ”: What can prevent your dreams from coming true?
Alexander Sviyash: Low self-esteem. Often parents raise their children, as they say, out of the opposite way: they say, you can’t do anything, you don’t know how, in the hope that he will run and prove the opposite. But if such attitudes are abused, the child will eventually believe that he will not succeed. Plus the attitude “keep your head down, otherwise you know where you’ll be,” embedded in our parents since Stalin’s times, which they pass on to their children, willy-nilly. At one time, large-scale selection was carried out - breeding out the average person, real Personalities were destroyed. This is why a whole generation of people with low self-esteem has grown up, not believing that anything depends on them. If we believed from childhood that everything is accessible, everything is possible, we would have long lived on the wave of good luck, and our wishes would have come true much more often.
Tatyana Dugelnaya: I think the position of the victim interferes with the fulfillment of desires. Often people think that someone else is to blame for their problems in life, they generate energy of resentment, guilt, anger, irritability. It is always flawed and destructive. As a result, a person does not have what he deserves - happiness, love, success.
Svetlana Vaskovskaya: Psychologists have conducted research on how people with the “loser” attitude in life differ from “successful” ones. It turned out that, having conceived something, a successful person builds in his mind the steps to achieve the goal right up to the final result. He focuses on him and changes tactics if something doesn’t work out along the way. But a loser has only the first two steps, but there is no end, so on the way to the goal he stalls, does not know what to do next... And also intentions and desires are formed by will. And will is values, meanings, aspirations. People who live on the wave of good luck always have a strong will.
Alexander Sviyash: If something doesn’t go well on the way to realizing your dream, you need to move away from the stereotype of thinking in which you are stuck and look at the situation from a distance, from above, for example, and not just from the inside. And then it turns out that there are huge opportunities all around, but you didn’t notice them, didn’t use them. It's like in business, where there are always tacticians and strategists. Tactics solve specific problems, while strategists see the situation as a whole. As a rule, strategists are always better off and have better positions than tacticians. The tactician increases the level of sales, and the strategist sees that this product is not needed at all and offers another.
Tatyana Dugelnaya: Strategists live in the future and act today from the future. They come from the position “I already exist, I am accomplished.” And only then do they build tactical positions to achieve results. This is the power of positive intention, the mindset for success.
Yuri Zhivoglyadov: In modern psychology and philosophy of man, the metaphor of movement and variability is strong. We see what happens to us as if from the window of a passing train, while we only notice what is close to us now. But if you look at the passing landscape not only from the window, but also from above, and ask what train I’m on, where, who is traveling with me, the situation appears completely different, in a broader, philosophical context. Reacting to something externally and internally, we are constantly changing. And when we realize ourselves as changing people, the natural ability to look deep into ourselves awakens in us. And then we learn to assume, to anticipate, we notice in time what is in our current circumstances. It is important to be able to be in a situation, in a context, but at the same time be in a very broad context of eternity.
“LJ”: This often happens: a person has been striving for a long time to achieve a goal, realized it, but there is no pleasure. Is it possible to somehow insure against disappointment?
Tatyana Dugelnaya: Indeed, often the achieved goal turns out to be not as sweet as we would like. The taste of victory seems bitter, disappointment comes. What to do? Thank the events that led to this goal, thank life for the experience gained, reformulate your goal and move on. Life is not a series of dramas and mistakes, but a series of lessons and experiences for the evolution of our Soul.
Alexander Sviyash: Goals should always be set a little higher than your current potential. It inspires, adds strength, and allows you to develop. A person wants a car, tries it on to suit his current capabilities, buys it, but after three months dissatisfaction arises. He thinks: “I shouldn’t have bought a better one.” It is worth planning to buy a car that seems unaffordable now and exceeds your current capabilities. To do this, of course, you will have to work harder, but the pleasure from the purchase will last for at least two years. The same is true for housing. If you have the resources to pull out a one-room apartment, you need to aim for a good two-room apartment. This will require tension, life will become more eventful, but you will get more satisfaction from the result. For example, for the last three years I wanted to live outside the city, there were no resources for this, but still I concentrated on it. I found a plot of land and borrowed money to buy it. Then I didn’t waste time on trifles and conceived a serious house project, for which I had absolutely no funds. Three years have passed since then. Today I live outside the city in a nice house that I designed myself and, to be honest, I still have no idea where I got the money to build it. There is no need to be afraid of your desires: when they arise, opportunities for their implementation also appear. Raise the bar for your goals, let them cause internal tension, and then, having achieved them, you will definitely not feel disappointed.
Desire and conscience are two sides of the scale. (David Samoilov).
A person is able to justify almost any of his actions. Doing the wrong thing, getting into conflict with his conscience, he is able to find dozens of reasons that forced, pushed, forced him to commit this act. But there are probably very few people who would be guided by evil in their actions, because even the most terrible murderers did not want to cause evil as such, it was only a means to achieve their goals.
Terrorists believe that killing people is necessary to liberate their people, and Hitler justified his actions (mass genocide of millions of Jews, their murder in camps, wars that killed millions of people) by the fact that for him there was only one chosen nation, for the sake of exaltation which could destroy all the others.
Does absolute evil exist at all? Is it possible to say that a person in his actions was guided by the intention to cause evil? I think this is not entirely true. The concepts of good and evil are relative and gain meaning only in comparison with each other, it all depends on what is considered good and what is evil. In modern human society, these concepts are more or less clearly defined (for example, murder is traditionally considered one of the most condemned actions (both from the point of view of law and from the point of view of morality), although there are a number of categories (accident, murder in self-defense, revenge, war, finally) when it can be justified or can cause a certain leniency towards the criminal.
A person cannot completely exist alone, on his own, and since a person largely depends on and influences other people, the so-called public opinion (universal morality) has formed, which is what most people are guided by, whose morality in life is determined precisely by this.
Life is a great roaring stream of water: some people surrender to it, moving according to its will, but remaining in place relative to it, and it carries them, dragging them through rapids and waterfalls. Some people seem to be resisting it, but even as they move upstream, they are still ultimately carried down. There are very few people who are able to “fall out of reality”, to find themselves outside the river called life. They know how to achieve their life goals; they do not depend on circumstances, but rather, circumstances depend on them; from dozens of behavior options, they choose the right one, calmly watching how the sand flows through the sieve, discarding what is unnecessary in search of a golden nugget. In Victor Pelevin's story "The Yellow Arrow" people's entire lives pass on a train in which they are born, live and die. This train, which has neither end nor beginning, moves all the time, never stopping, and it is possible to get off it only by dying. Their only life reality, philosophy, is a train, where all the attributes of life are present (work, leisure, family). But sometimes from the train window, instead of a continuous green line of trees, you can see houses, fields, cities inhabited by other people, so close and at the same time unattainable. The goal of the main character is to escape from his reality, which determines his existence, and, accordingly, to discover a new world, which only he himself is capable of achieving. Our life does not stand still, and we must move along with it; it depends on you whether you will find a quiet, calm island of your happiness or find yourself drawn into a fetid quagmire.
But, often, in order to achieve what is necessary, you must first come to an agreement with your conscience. Often he commits his base acts (which a person would never commit for himself) “in the name of public goals, interests” - this is how he tries to drown out his conscience. (I don’t care about my happiness, but about the happiness of others, which means I can be stingy with my principles and go into conflict with my conscience. Even though I cause evil, but this is done for the sake of good in the future. Most people justify their actions by the fact that she acts “like everyone else” (and why am I worse than others?), forgetting at the same time that each of these “everyone” can reason in exactly the same way.
Public opinion is a very uncertain thing. It is not clear what depends on whom, public opinion on the person, or the person on public opinion. When a person performs his actions, guided by “common” goals, can it be said that society is always right, because it consists of individual people, and for the main part of them this opinion is imposed from the outside; Often the correctness of a decision is determined by the number of people who support it. Previously, when there were no mass sources of information, it was much more difficult to manipulate public consciousness (the parliamentary and presidential elections, which half the country supported in six months, once again showed how easy it is to manipulate public opinion).
The only dogma is conscience. The only God is within. The only way is through conscience and inside. OSHO
We all have the experience that recently, at some stage of our lives, sometimes very suddenly, our relationships with someone specific or entire groups cease. And it seems that everything is already clear in the light of new knowledge, and yet I would like to take a deeper look at this process. Any of our relationships with the outside world once began at that level of vibrations when we “matched” in all respects. These relationships grew and developed or simply “were” as a given, in the family, for example. Relationships could be very different: from very contradictory - to the most intimate, existing for years, and maybe a whole life or short-term. There are many patterns and examples of existing types of relationships, but that’s not the point. They have one thing in common: at some stage in our lives, these relationships suddenly end, often suddenly, and most importantly, quietly. Quiet, i.e. without pretending to sort things out, to “save” us, or in any other way. As well, we intuitively no longer pretend to anything and allow it to be. Later, listening to ourselves, we note that deep inside we were already ready for this event, we were only afraid to admit it to ourselves. From here, the process itself occurs as naturally as possible. Of course, for some time, at the level of thoughts and feelings, all participants in the events undergo a reconfiguration - this is also natural. There is a common thing: these events have become massive and occur more easily than if it happened in an “older” energy. And yet, what is happening to us? If we take as a basis the concept of new energies and rising vibrations, we can consider this process at the energetic level. At this stage of our evolution, we have entered a phase when each of us has the opportunity to gain understanding of our True Essence, Life Mission. Perhaps not everyone is yet clearly aware of this, or not yet aware of it at all. It doesn’t matter, the main thing is that at some point we “register” this cosmic call at the level of our Soul and begin the internal reconfiguration of all our life programs in accordance with the activated True Self and spiritual destiny. Let not everyone yet realize their Mission as some kind of manifested result, it is important that this process is activated in us and is already happening at deeper levels. Full conscious reunification with the innermost knowledge of yourself is a matter of time and readiness for this event. Willingness to Accept Responsibility for the True Purpose of Ourselves. From the moment we awaken our inner knowledge about ourselves and our purpose, we begin to quickly raise our vibrations. Reading spiritual literature, attending seminars, communities, etc. is part of this process. We notice how quickly we and everything around us are changing, how our and collective consciousness is expanding. It is especially joyful and easy to experience this in a circle of like-minded people. We all evolve quickly, and even if this process occurs at different speeds and can periodically lead to “painful” discrepancies in vibrations, we gradually level out and move forward together again. In this situation, the result is determined by the willingness of the partners to move on, and this happens if the partners maintain an internal connection “from heart to heart.” The evolution of the Soul is currently happening at a colossal speed and this is a very difficult process for us. The Spirit informs that in this incarnation we make such a vibrational shift in our development, which in previous energies we could only make within 5-6 consecutive incarnations. The essence of the evolution of the Soul is to recognize all aspects of ourselves, living the experience of different Life Lessons, accept them and integrate them, restoring our Integrity. And then, one day, we grow to such a level of self-awareness when in any of our relationships we are faced with a certain dilemma : to follow oneself or continue to be a shadow of someone; develop your own life or be part of someone else's life. We share living space with many partners, family members. Now we begin to think: on what principles do we develop partnerships? On the principles of interaction between whole people, standing firmly on their own two feet or half-hearted ones, who are trying to rely on each other and, therefore, have a chance to fall. What unites us in partnerships: either the commonality of life themes, the similarity of life lessons, or the contradictions contained in these life circumstances. In relationships built on contradictions, there is a special mechanism of relationships, but it is very significant for our internal development. At the stages of awakening and initial self-awareness, the mechanism of contradictions helps us, through the pain caused by these contradictions, to recognize our Truth, gain Faith in ourselves, etc., and as a result, to enter into our Power. Mental pain is always an echo of an existing There is an internal wound in us, acquired in past incarnations and waiting for its moment of release and healing. Hence, relationships “with contradictions”, which reflect to us our unhealed aspects, are very important for the evolution of the Soul, as an internal engine of progress. And we can leave as much as we want, run away from this partner, “causing” us pain, until we realize our inner wound and release the distorted energy, we will “need” such relationships and unconsciously attract them again and again. In relationships with “ contradictions,” we one day come to understand that it is not someone outside who is to blame for our difficult relationships, but it is our own unhealed aspect that is reflected in the other person. For example, a person with a matrix of self-doubt will always attract a person with a matrix of very self-confidence. It would seem that a very confident person is great. Yes, great, only in this context - this confidence is just a mask created by ego distortions, trying to cover up the same self-doubt. 
Any form of self-doubt is a fact of non-acceptance of oneself, ignoring many aspects of oneself that are trying to reach our heart and consciousness in all ways. And the more complex our relationships with the outside world, the greater the degree of non-acceptance of the True Self they reflect to us. In the most persistent cases of non-acceptance of ourselves, the outside world “with pleasure” does not accept us, which only opens up our internal wounds. And all this fully reflects to us dislike for ourselves, artificial attempts to live “on the periphery of ourselves,” but not from our own center, not from the heart united with the Soul. Having lived through all the stages of “contradictions” and achieving healing, partners either discover a New World Unconditional Love as a physical reality, or they end their relationship, ready to nevertheless enter this world, only with another - a “potential” partner. 
The initial commonality of life programs helps us to consider similar life circumstances not only with our own eyes, but also through the eyes of a friend. By connecting in pairs or large communities, we rely on collective strength, i.e. We are guided more by the opinions of others than by our own. As we grow internally, we gradually increase our Own Strength and need less and less reliance on another person. We begin to develop a Relationship with Ourselves. We become comfortable from being alone with ourselves. In this phase of development, we realize that we are able to receive any answers to our questions from our own Higher Self, i.e. - not from the outside, but within yourself. Hence, our initially friendly relationships may fall apart, since we no longer need to receive confirmation of our thoughts and feelings from surrounding partners. From this moment on, we no longer need “mirrors” in the person of other people who would reflect to us our best sides, qualities, aspects that strengthen our faith in ourselves. Or we realize that we no longer want to be a donor of energy for others, even beloved Souls, providing them with a disservice rather than a friendly one. At the same time, it is very important to understand for ourselves that all the friendly support that existed in the old energies was appropriate for that period and provided us with invaluable assistance on the path of our formation and self-discovery. It’s just that now the paradigms are changing: we are developing a New Relationship with Ourselves. It is good that we can meet bright reflections of ourselves around, and further, in the process of our development, there will be even more such reflections, because our inner light intensifies. There is one important nuance in this moment: now we can confidently walk through life and not depend on whether we meet a “good” reflection at any given moment or not, because we obviously don’t need this in order to maintain faith in ourselves. Having started to develop relationship with ourselves, we gradually learn to see our True reflection in our Soul, in the inner mirror, therefore we become free from external, even the best, most beautiful and true reflections. So, an important criterion in this process is gaining inner freedom, through liberation from “attachment” to any opinion, gaining independence from other energies.
In the process of development and formation of such quality as Discrimination, at any stage of self-knowledge, we can use the information that others reflect to us. But, in the end, dive into the deep level of yourself and allow your own internal work to take place to analyze the information received from all sources and channels, the result of which will be a new reflection of yourself as a purer, clear image of the True Self.
It is very important to allow such analytical work to happen at the level of the heart, but not the mind. Our mind then receives already processed information from the level of the heart in relation to its own Soul and true life goals. In this case, through the mirror of our Soul we see our True reflection and the quality of what we see improves with each new
stage. 
As for our friendships, initially built at the level of the heart, these relationships persist, perhaps cease for some time, but in due time they are restored again and grow to a qualitatively higher level.
The heartfelt connection between Holistic partners only develops, becomes stronger, and on the physical level we feel greater freedom and ease in our relationships. Now we also reflect to those around them the most beautiful aspects and qualities of the Soul, with pleasure we see our own reflections in their open hearts and shining eyes. Only all this comes from inner freedom and the desire to joyfully interact and Create together, but not from a painful need to receive support as confirmation of one’s own worth. In this case, we are not talking about a conscious intention to receive healing, friendly support at any transitional stage of life, stage of self-knowledge. We are talking about the unconscious patterns of our behavior that we used to manipulate each other, consume each other’s energy resource, violating the laws of equal energy exchange. We are discovering the benefits that relationships built on new principles give us: now such forms of communication and relationships are becoming very deep in essence and time-consuming, which frees up a lot of energy and physical time for us to creatively develop our Relationship with ourselves and develop our own lives.
Partners who have built relationships out of their inner Integrity develop a qualitatively different life.
The union of such Souls generates joint energy of a higher order, which opens up new horizons of Creation for all partners. This is always the energy of joyful and loving interaction. Sometimes it is enough just to understand and accept these principles of being on your Path in order to forever turn towards your heart, facing your True Self. This is the long-awaited moment of Meeting Yourself, accompanied by alchemical transformation and reunification in your Wholeness.
And indeed it is! The appearance of every thought is the will of the Creator. And in its deepest essence, there is contained energy for the embodiment of the thought that has appeared, its possible disclosure and manifestation in all dimensions of existence. The mastery of creating reality lies in conscious concentration and fixation of the vector of intention on one or another thought. And all that remains is to use the freedom of choice, maintaining your integrity, listen to the tuning fork “do no harm” and choose this thought. / M. Polyakova /
M.Polyakova http://www.proza.ru/2012/01/22/2018
Peace in love http://www.stihi.ru/2011/07/03/7078
Marina Polyakova Eagle CUP OF THE GRAIL WITH THE NECTAR OF LOVE chapter: Insight of the Dimiurge - flight of the avatar
PEACE IN LOVE
The skies opened again. The night is over and the morning is over.
Early.
That you love me, said... the only one, dear, desired. 
And I listened to my soul. What impulse will he respond with? Otherwise he’ll start singing already? Or will a trill sound in the heart of happiness with the same joyful motive? Will it jump inside and explode?
Soul, the Lord's cradle will open again for the world From short words about Love?...
Today the joy is not so great... Yes, the nightingales chirped, you sang something again, I don’t know... But... the ocean flooded my soul like a big wave today,
And in its depths the peace sparkled with its greatness.
And in the depths of my soul, from the words of your Love, so tender, silence opened up... in silence... like the same ocean - boundless.
Love...there can be a hurricane! Game of planets in the sky,
Like a fire-breathing volcano, it is strong in fire in its nature.
A gambling whirlwind of crazy passions in hearts sometimes excites...
But the storm passes, the calm calms down...then you pacify. Love can be like that. And majestic and worthy, Deep bringing peace... yes, stops wars,
Yes, it stops thought with its immeasurable greatness.
And dooms everyone to... life!!! Consciously, naturally.
Peace in Love! Wow! I never dreamed of guessing it.
But this is a reward, yes I deserved! Proved
That I am worthy, in the end. Calmly rejoice in happiness, beating evenly and in unison, without a storm of passion.
And with the warm tenderness of one and with the sensitivity of charm, Which only gives the peace of the depths of Love and the Universe.
And the thin canopy of existence seems weightless and unsteady,
And the Ego, the Self, disappears, and the mind becomes so flexible,
And he falls silent at the end. The whole world is so light and transparent...
And smiling, God the Father solves all problems for us......
How can I express in my heart the happiness I have found with you? When Love, with its power, suddenly beckoned My dreaming soul, which contained the Love of times...
You became my husband before God and you are so tenderly in love with me.
How to express the immeasurable peace that suddenly blossomed in the heart?
He is natural for Love, he came from the depths of Love.
How can I express the joy in my heart that has caressed my soul? She regained her former strength, youth, and reigned in the depths
A soul, grateful with happiness to all heavens and all Gods For a moment in life, such a gorgeous one: Love given to us.
